Scared of the moon

Such an irrational fear
How do you overcome something that you don't understand?
How do you talk to someone that isn't there?
How do you questoin fact that has been proven?
All these questions come from a confused, sleep deprived mind.
How do you make someone understand something that you yourself are unable to comprehend.
to fear the dark is a false statement. They don't fear the darkness itself but rather what happens in it or because of it. light doesn't change the bad that happens in the dark. It'll still happen, you'lljust be able to see it coming sooner.
can someone just sleeping on the other end of the phone really make you safer?
Or does it just trick you into believing that someone cares.
No one cares, they're just to nice to let you shiver in fear ans let you cry by yourself.
No none is capable of love except God himself.
He can protect you from all but humanity and yourself.
Weather you choose to accept his protection is your fault.
He wants you to take it and he's given you a chance to take it and if you haven't your a MORON!!!!!!!!!!!
he can rid those thoughts of disappointment and suffering, the combinatoin of these two are the equivalent of fear.

Vacatoin.

I've been out of the house once!!!! only once within this week!!! I have to sit here with the cat's that currently don't have nay litter in the litter box because someone decided she couldn't go across the street to go get any. they are soooo fucking annoying!!!!!!!!!!! I'm having an oldies marathon of the NOWs. I went to the movies yesterday and ran into someone... interesting.he just so happened to be at the same movie as me. yeah I'm grounded because I didn't tell mom were I was going... um I would've told her but I had no Idea I was going to end up outside of the neighborhood... UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why the hell Am I sooo Fucking bored?!?!?!?!?!?! Only two more days until Christmas. damn holiday.
Christmas sheer is a waste around here these days. we used to go around until midnight finding Christmas lights, now we sit around watching TV.
Ever since my sister left mom can't hold her ground. she;s so worried that I'll do the same that she doesn't realize what she's doing. atleast she lets me hang out with guys still. I still have my sanity thank god but I'm not sure for how much longer. gurgle!!!! I spend all my time on the phone with a douche because I can't find any reason in how he's a douche, but everyone else thinks he is one so he must be... maybe I'm just stupid.

I thank you for listening to my ongoing rant about the little things,
Sincerely,
Kyra Edwards

Vacatoin!!!!!!!!!

thus begins the long journey of christmas vacatoin and again it hits me that unless someone can have as free time as me I will be home alone for two weeks, then home with mark and his son wonderful... how grateful I am for the move down here.

bored

Kyra:why is it that guys get so fuking obsessive and possessive when your dating.


Batty:here my batty word and exercise a little prudence when dealing with.....
human.


Girl:Humans?!

Batty:What were? No No No No No!!!! Lucy!!!!!!

Girl:No No there are no humans

Dude1:they're long gone.

Dude2:definitely extinct

King:they only exist in stories.

some hearts are broken then sewn back together wrong

I can't figure it out. He doesn't want me and I don't care but I keep getting these broken hearted songs stuck in my head. Because of this I write it as my status on face book. we're still friends on there s o he probably thinks I'm obsessed with him and can't get him out of my mind. now I am neither nor am I heart broken. He says he's in love with my best friend and she thinks she loves him so I hope them both best wishes. on the other hand I wish I could be next to her through the worst of it. Because I can't and I'm just another voice on the phone to her I hope she Briana or Brittany or whatever her name is can give her wonderous advice.

I'm feeling very despureaux-ish

question: am I upset, worried, or jealous?

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recently understood that ex boyfriend no longer wishes for ex girlfriend and instead goes to best friend in Idaho. how will ex girl friend react? stay tuned and learn later






ex girlfriend goes into solitude to hide her unavoidable feelings how could someone leave her? a beautiful girl { full of flaws may i say} no one has ever left her hanging!

my goodness selfish beast do thine eyes deceive the. and do mine eye deceive me? hath thou not discovered his pet peeves and not avoided them. Hark you run screaming into them! you foolish child he shant need you longer than required to get his buisness done.

I was buried alive.. Are you dying to believe I can't go on without you

If you've been following me long enough you know that I am having a major withdrawl for a moment. the past week my brain has died and I can't really stop myself from doing anything. I wish I had the power but i don't. Luckily I don't have the feeling as I had when I could've sworn I was going insane.
the day I first noticed this was the day after my ex called me saying he wanted to get back together with me. first of all it's not like he was the dumpee but rather he was the dumper. I couldn't figure it out and Is till can't. He left with what he called a gut feeling to leave me. I told him he should do what he feels like the right thing is. exactly a week later he call me saying {as best i can remember} "I'm a very proud person so this is hard for me to say. I'm sorry I was stupid and I miss you. is there any way you can take me back?"
with this I responded "wow I... um. I don't know. I just..." then I went to talk to my mom and her bf about it. they said they didn't want to be responsible if I got hurt so they weren't going to tell me what to do. so then I decided to tell I was going to sleep on it think it over. he called me back a week later and I told him my friends would hate me if I did and I really can't have them hating my right now. he said "okay that's good enough for me" then hung up... no goodbye... no can we stillbe friends... nothing.
then a week later he calls me and says "I've been like drinking for the past two hours." I didn't know what to say after that, I mean he wants to be a military chaplain. what on earth is up with that. he also did dip. I'm not sure what he says is the truth anymore and I'm worried. after that my phone died so I didn't get an explanation.
anyway It doesn't hurt it's just confusing and makes me worry what's running through his mind.