some hearts are broken then sewn back together wrong

I can't figure it out. He doesn't want me and I don't care but I keep getting these broken hearted songs stuck in my head. Because of this I write it as my status on face book. we're still friends on there s o he probably thinks I'm obsessed with him and can't get him out of my mind. now I am neither nor am I heart broken. He says he's in love with my best friend and she thinks she loves him so I hope them both best wishes. on the other hand I wish I could be next to her through the worst of it. Because I can't and I'm just another voice on the phone to her I hope she Briana or Brittany or whatever her name is can give her wonderous advice.

I'm feeling very despureaux-ish

question: am I upset, worried, or jealous?

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recently understood that ex boyfriend no longer wishes for ex girlfriend and instead goes to best friend in Idaho. how will ex girl friend react? stay tuned and learn later






ex girlfriend goes into solitude to hide her unavoidable feelings how could someone leave her? a beautiful girl { full of flaws may i say} no one has ever left her hanging!

my goodness selfish beast do thine eyes deceive the. and do mine eye deceive me? hath thou not discovered his pet peeves and not avoided them. Hark you run screaming into them! you foolish child he shant need you longer than required to get his buisness done.

I was buried alive.. Are you dying to believe I can't go on without you

If you've been following me long enough you know that I am having a major withdrawl for a moment. the past week my brain has died and I can't really stop myself from doing anything. I wish I had the power but i don't. Luckily I don't have the feeling as I had when I could've sworn I was going insane.
the day I first noticed this was the day after my ex called me saying he wanted to get back together with me. first of all it's not like he was the dumpee but rather he was the dumper. I couldn't figure it out and Is till can't. He left with what he called a gut feeling to leave me. I told him he should do what he feels like the right thing is. exactly a week later he call me saying {as best i can remember} "I'm a very proud person so this is hard for me to say. I'm sorry I was stupid and I miss you. is there any way you can take me back?"
with this I responded "wow I... um. I don't know. I just..." then I went to talk to my mom and her bf about it. they said they didn't want to be responsible if I got hurt so they weren't going to tell me what to do. so then I decided to tell I was going to sleep on it think it over. he called me back a week later and I told him my friends would hate me if I did and I really can't have them hating my right now. he said "okay that's good enough for me" then hung up... no goodbye... no can we stillbe friends... nothing.
then a week later he calls me and says "I've been like drinking for the past two hours." I didn't know what to say after that, I mean he wants to be a military chaplain. what on earth is up with that. he also did dip. I'm not sure what he says is the truth anymore and I'm worried. after that my phone died so I didn't get an explanation.
anyway It doesn't hurt it's just confusing and makes me worry what's running through his mind.